Overwhelming Emotions

I’m beating at the answers
Black and blues cover the solutions
Swollen words can’t speak
Where is my white flag?
My salvation of sentences
over thinking
I wish I was an empty shell
Hollowing out experiences
Why can’t I trade my emotions for clarity
Refund my choices
Discount on self-consciousness
over thinking
Confusion gain me enough
Frequent Flier miles
Cashing in my benefits
I request Peace of mind
Steady heart beat
Road map to my journeybecause my legs are giving out on this rocky road
I scream for secrets lying within to breach
Ligaments needs to wash off the grim of guilt
over thinking
I’m not your mother so why do I keep on trying to protect you from my thoughts
Trying not to be baggage under your eyes
Trying to trend on ice with steel boots
Trying not to look desperate for the right words
over thinking
Thoughts run rampant racing rationality
Anonymously tipping into YOU
Unbalancing MY needs

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I don't remeber when I wrote this poem but I remeber why. This is how my ex use to make me feel everytime I was around him. The overthinking is in yellow bc that's his fav color. I always overthink my movements, thoughts, and words when I'm around him. This is my 1st blog. I can hear E.La (my bff) saying FINALLY...lol