Hello,

I went to my school's Step Team Competition tonight. It was amazing!!! While I was watching the show, I started wanting to join the step team but reality hit me and I knew that wouldn't happen since I am leaving the school. Just like I put that figure skating dream to rest, I did the same with joining the Step Team. So there is a party tonight which I decided not to go.

You know the most tiring thing my life is pretending to be strong. I have low self esteem which I know is all my making since its "self" esteem. I know I am beautiful, smart and funny but next to those lil Kim, Nikki Minaj, Amber Rose look a likes. I become shy. Which is the major reason that I am not going to go to the party. Also that a boy named R is going to be there and I know he is into my roommate. Of course I should just go for my self but I am just not into pretending to be strong tonight.

Sincerely,
Hurt