The Start

Hi,

I usually just put up poetry in my blogs but i going to try some new things out. I don't want to say that its a diary but its mostly likely a hey this is whats happening in my life and if you want to read it , go ahead.

I don't even know where to start really.

Boys.

I am what you might say boy crazy on the low...its really ridiculous. I am not a slut....lets just say I like kissing... more like love kissing. its the closes physical connection that I will let myself get into because I don't.... I'll probably write a poem about kissing. The guys that are in my life right now are S, J, and B. I am keeping there names secret because even you wouldn't want your name to be somewhere that you didn't know. I'm not a playa but I like to have options. I know how much it hurts to put my attention to one guy and end up not being liked back. I use to love my best friend C. I even wrote him a letter and poem but he still loved me as a friend which is okay. BUT I turned my outlook on guys as possibilities, never permanent joys. I would say my heart is jaded but I am not bitter because I love LOVE.

College.

I attend the University of New Haven for those who didn't know. I love my friends, the experiences that I have had, some of the classes, and parties, but I don't love the institution itself. Which hurts so much because I really want to stay with my friends but I can't afford to stay another semester and there is also nothing to do here besides go to a club (which i don't like since I am a house party kind of girl), drink, and smoke (which i hate). For a girl that came from New York City, its hard to deal with so little options. So I'm leaving this school after this semester. I will finally be in New York, studying psychology.