Poetry Book

Hi,

I am finally writing this poetry book. It's been a struggle to finish because I was somehow afraid of the success that it may bring. I know its good but I haven't really been famous for anything and I really want this to be a success. To officially be able to say I am an author will be amazing. Ofcourse I am afraid to fail but that is only one percent chance for that to happen. After I finish this book I am going to finish editing my essay for the Public Theater internship. Hopefully I get to work there.

peace.

I don't know wat to do...

Hello,


Today, I just ended a friendship. Which I usually don't do. I'm just tired of trying to be her friend. She has told me that she isn't use to people caring for her. I understand that but why doesn't she just cut the people that don't care for her out her life. I know I seem like an inconsiderate human being but I am just tired of trying. I give up.


" You can spend minutes, hours, days, weeks or even months over-analyzing a situation; trying to put the pieces together, justifying what could've, would've happened...or you can just leave the pieces on the floor and move the FUCK ON " - Tupac

Hello,

I went to my school's Step Team Competition tonight. It was amazing!!! While I was watching the show, I started wanting to join the step team but reality hit me and I knew that wouldn't happen since I am leaving the school. Just like I put that figure skating dream to rest, I did the same with joining the Step Team. So there is a party tonight which I decided not to go.

You know the most tiring thing my life is pretending to be strong. I have low self esteem which I know is all my making since its "self" esteem. I know I am beautiful, smart and funny but next to those lil Kim, Nikki Minaj, Amber Rose look a likes. I become shy. Which is the major reason that I am not going to go to the party. Also that a boy named R is going to be there and I know he is into my roommate. Of course I should just go for my self but I am just not into pretending to be strong tonight.

Sincerely,
Hurt

Candy

Hello,

I wrote this after watching the film Candy with Heath Ledger.

we lived off of sunlight and chocolate bars and skittle kisses and sometimes situations were a sour patch kid but i knew it will all be sweet again and frozen grapes will fill taste buds and brain freeze the happiness and we bathed in sun storms and laid in marshmallow sheets and breathed in the ecstasy of possibility and wed underneath gumdrops and intertwine like twizzers peeling away layers later that night

I wish you were awake right now to live in my dreams...

The Start

Hi,

I usually just put up poetry in my blogs but i going to try some new things out. I don't want to say that its a diary but its mostly likely a hey this is whats happening in my life and if you want to read it , go ahead.

I don't even know where to start really.

Boys.

I am what you might say boy crazy on the low...its really ridiculous. I am not a slut....lets just say I like kissing... more like love kissing. its the closes physical connection that I will let myself get into because I don't.... I'll probably write a poem about kissing. The guys that are in my life right now are S, J, and B. I am keeping there names secret because even you wouldn't want your name to be somewhere that you didn't know. I'm not a playa but I like to have options. I know how much it hurts to put my attention to one guy and end up not being liked back. I use to love my best friend C. I even wrote him a letter and poem but he still loved me as a friend which is okay. BUT I turned my outlook on guys as possibilities, never permanent joys. I would say my heart is jaded but I am not bitter because I love LOVE.

College.

I attend the University of New Haven for those who didn't know. I love my friends, the experiences that I have had, some of the classes, and parties, but I don't love the institution itself. Which hurts so much because I really want to stay with my friends but I can't afford to stay another semester and there is also nothing to do here besides go to a club (which i don't like since I am a house party kind of girl), drink, and smoke (which i hate). For a girl that came from New York City, its hard to deal with so little options. So I'm leaving this school after this semester. I will finally be in New York, studying psychology.